LtM – 19 October 2010

Dear Mom,

Hi! I’m doing OK. It’s a windy day in Cornwall and the clouds are unsure if they should produce rain or gloom. It’s autumn alright.

Things are kind of exciting here. I’m bidding on a job for **********. A mural – actually, two. One outdoors, one in. Very exciting to think that I can do something so large and that people will see it. I haven’t done a mural in years, but I know I can do a great job. Who knows, maybe I’ll get more work from it. It’s taken me 38 years to see that art and writing should be my path, but only recently have I chopped down the weeds of self-doubt to find the courage to do it. I wish you could see the sketches and (fingers crossed) the final work on the wall. I did a study for it the other day in acrylics – an ocean wave. Translucency in water is a tricky thing, but I think I nailed it. More studies to be done, but that’s just me focussing on a topic instead of my normal ‘what should I paint today’ attitude. I’ve done half a dozen sketches already too… the final composition is forming. Wish me luck!

I keep up with Kevin. We email at least once a week now. It’s great to rekindle a communication with him. I had a brilliant time staying at his house and acquainting myself with the family. Julie is a star. You’d love her. Grandma is doing brilliantly in their care and really I can’t imagine her anywhere more loving and healthy. I gave grandma a quilt you made to keep across the foot of her bed. She loves it. It’s a more traditional style than your art wall hangings; the quilt is the dark blue complex floral designs on lighter blue. It’s lovely. Also, when I was there, I hung a wall-hanging you made on grandma’s wall. She had tears just looking at it and touching it. She’s coping, and having those pieces around her let her feel closer to you. Julie has hung another of your works on their living room wall. They love it. She’s also enjoying the fabric I brought down with me. Kevin says she’s working on something with it already. I passed a few of your creative quilting books on to her and I think she’s inspired. I brought home a bunch of fabric too – well, have mailed it mostly as it weighs a tonne! – and I haven’t decided what I’m going to do with it all yet. I may attempt to finish a few of your works (I brought over the works in progress as well as finished things) and I know that you taught me enough to muddle my way through some sewing. I’ll just have to be patient and not get lazy with what I sew. Should be interesting! At least you won’t see the results! Ha! No cringing!

Neil’s next book is coming along. He’s so grateful you were able to hear and offer input on the project. The words and structure are pouring out of him. He’s got three books planned in the series so far! I still have a hard time with novels, but my children’s book ideas are developing very well. I want to have something finished by Christmas. I’m also considering doing NaNoWriMo again this year. I don’t have a clue what I’ll write for it, but it’s a brilliant excuse and deadline to get another novel draft out of me. Ah, deadlines. I would be useless without them.

That’s all for now. I must get back to work.

I love you.
Jennifer

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3 thoughts on “LtM – 19 October 2010”

  1. Hi Parky- Yup. Intentional. I’m trying to figure out a way to live without her. I figure letters will get some of it out of my system.
    I have such a void.

  2. I think it’s wonderful you are doing this. We all deal with grief in our own ways. I think your mom would have really loved this. Don’t forget to mention butter from time to time. 🙂

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