That’s likely how the series of events will play out. I’m going to focus on work for the next day or so and then it’s off to the US to visit friends, family and the pets I share with Aaron. I’m excited to go back and slightly anxious over the deluge of feelings that will inevitably come with the experience. The last time I was in the states was the first week of March.
I had been living here in the UK for four months then‚Äì this time the gap is around a month longer. It seems possible to keep up the trend of visits twice per year. The last time I went back I enjoyed myself but missed my home here in Berkshire. Now, it will feel even more evident that I am a guest in the place I spent 10 years of my life, and I will miss my new home even more. I’m used to life here. I drive on the ‘wrong’ side of the car and road. I pronounce many words differently. I’ve finally got the hang of giving change with British coins instead of always using pound notes to avoid embarrassment… I am a British resident now and going back to the US will be a peculiar flood of familiar and foreign. Twice per year for that sort of emotional disruption might be plenty for now. 😉 As time passes, the visits will become easier with each one. For now, it’s still difficult due to the friendly circumstances in which I left it all. I have love in both countries‚Äì 4000 miles apart and twice per year I saturate myself in hugs and tears of joy and sadness. Thank goodness I have the opportunity, no matter how tricky it can be to tiptoe through the emotional landmines. 🙂
I’m looking forward to this trip like you can’t believe. I’ll be with my friends and family, shopping, eating, laughing at my evolving accent, gaining weight on all the foods I forgot how much I miss, and getting in as much fuzzy love from my cats and dog as possible! I will have a great time and leave drunk on love coupled with the intense desire to be here, cooking in my own kitchen, sleeping in my own bed.
This little expat has gone on long enough. There’s work to be done both with code and with housework. The next day and a half will be busy, so I bid you a good week and I will do my best to blog once or twice from the US.